Sleeping in the OT!

Hi, funny thing happend yesterday. We finished the round very late and we had a couple of referrals so we got to run from place to another and finally landed in the OT. I was having the flu for a couple of days and my system was filled with antihistamine, ibuprofen and caffeine! I kept going. So today in the theater I was shivering , sweating and my legs were no more strong enough! I walked out of the OT fighting  an urge to throw up and just collapsed in the OT changing room. ( it seemed way too far at that time, and I just you know peacefully fainted). Any way after throwing up a couple of times I felt better. But was still dizzy and weak. So I decided to get a power nap in the changing room ( hey, no judgement I mean I wish I had a bed in my pocket).  A very sweat students came in and brought me juice ( oh I felt them checking out my pulse and calling my name asking if I was a live. Funny I know). anyway it seemed I looked so blue and they couldn't feel my faint pulse at that time (I guess my cold hand scared them, I am sure I have good pulse. My heart was going crazy) 

So I was escorted by group of happy students to the staff clinic. ( I know the feeling, hehe I will be happy too! I love escorting people. )

 Turn out I had pneumonia and dehydrated. Oh but I guess the reason I collapsed is because my beloved body was screaming for food. My morning start way to early and the intern is alone so I think it is unfair to ignore that even if it mean no break for us. I usually sleep once I get home and get up for a 3 hour or less study break then I sleep some more. I would drink coffee and some chocolate and it never occurred to me I am not actually eating! 

Oh, how humiliating collapsing like that. Let's hope it is the last time and that the bugs will give me my lungs back. 

As for those sweet students I can't thank them enough. 

They called back to check how Am I doing. So sweet of them. In such a horrible time they were a blessing. I know they will be great doctors and I'm honered to meet such people. 

As for going to work sick: the guilt was eating me. I was afraid of infecting people ( I could not get an N95 mask so used a regular mask) My college made it clear unless you are in the ICU you are not excused.

The idea of becoming a doctor is scarring me. My new mantra is " Lord please make me safe and excellent doctor"

Love you all