Blessing

Praise to God!
I've passed my finals. Yaaay. I didn't know one can be so excited to see a C+ .  Excited is an understatement I was ecstatic almost euphoric. Best yet: all my friends passed as well AND there was one friend who was a magent for bad examiners and who despite hard working ends up with bad marks because of the examiners. She finally got the grades she deserves. Happiness. Her sister called inviting me to a trip to Dubai. Joy.
I feel so blessed.

Thank you all

B plan

Hey, A plan is to pass my finals. B plan? I need your help with suggestions as what to do if - dear lord please forgive my self doubt- didn't. Any suggestions? What would you do with a Bhs in health science?

Study wise: done with some subjects.    Had lazy day yesterday.
Note to self : buy lovely friends something nice ( they keep helping  and supporting me). I had recieve so many chocolates and flower on the past couple of days. I feel blessed. Dear lord help me pass my finals.

Wish me luck 

end of year exam

 Hi

One week to end of year exam. I hadn’t blog for a long time, but I am planning to write about some rotations later on.

So 2014 ( happy new year by the way) was a rather interesting year, I visited 4 countries, was about to get married ( thanks lord I am still single), and it involved lots of new experiences and money expenditures.

Study wise, I am worried I could have done better. The most important thing I learnt ( though I knew/read it before) was to be careful with whom you spend your time with. This include your clinical partners. Last year I was with very enthusiastic students who I can easily engage in discussion and quick ward revision ( i.e. whenever we are waiting for a consultant or a procedure I'll open a page and we'll read it together or we will go through some topics and that really did enrich my learning).  This year …uhh  let's just pray I pass with good grades and be a safe doctor.

The written exam will be in blocks over  3 days, it'll cover:

-          Obs& gyn

-          Pediatrics

-          Medicine/hematology/emergency

-          Surgery/urology/ ENT

-          ICU

-          Therapeutics and labs!

-          FAMCO

-          Radiology

 

Many topics! I need to find a way to motivate myself and concentrate more.

Wish me luckJ

What happened?

In my first day of obs/gyn rotation the following happened:

-          me entering the morning meeting room 5 five minutes before it is due.

-          F***  up consultant, who has the reputation of chewing people (not only students) a live: HEY, GO TO THE FRONT SEAT ( though no visual aid will be used!)

-          Me smiling anxiously as I realize I am the chosen one and drag myself to the "hot seat"

-          10 minutes into the meeting, they were talking about a non reassuring CTG, and that they had to rush the patient to the OT.  F**** up consultant get up from the back of the room, took the CTG trace paper, hold it less than 15 cm( I kid you not) from my face and shout: READ IT.

-          I freaked out, I had reads tens of them before- as I did my elective in oby/gyne-, but for some reason I feel uncertain and scared. I start analyzing but the panic exaggerate and I start shaking and told the f*** up consultant: You are scarring me and I don’t know how to read it. Panic took over and I start silently sobbing and had to excuse myself out.

I was surprised by my reaction, my colleagues were traumatized and concerned what just happened!

Anyway, living alone and not taking a good care of oneself would certainly lead to that. AND, definitely listening to horror stories about a particular person will make thing worse.

Now I have to work extra hard to prove myself, especially since I am considering oby/gyne as a future specialty.

As of the f*** up consultant, he/she is mean to everyone including the patients. I have yet to see a more manipulative doctor who make fun of their patients in their face.

I think I had a couple of panic attacks symptoms after that incident, but thankfully didn't miss a  clinic/round because of it (except that morning meeting)

I was impressed by the amount of the support I received. I know what I did was not professional, but S*** happens.

P.S:

To reassure myself if that F**** up consultant tried to bully me  I came up with 2 plans:

1.       Go hug him/her very tight

2.       Video record the incident, and hope the attack will be aborted.

But I might as well start shaking and sobbing again, who knows!

 

I  am truly surprised by my reaction, never knew there were a chicken hen in me J  

P.S2:

I'll appreciate any feedback/analysis of the incident!

 

 

 

Elderly

 I met a lovely elderly women in the clinic today. She was charming to say the least. I was lucky I got to spend extra time with her as the real doctor was called for another consult. I was his nurse( taking the vitals, calculating BMI, and drawing blood) plus do the physical  exam.  As a reward he taught me a couple of things.
As she left, she looked me in the eyes and said : thank you child.

Then she opened her handbag and gave me a candy.  - and had to give the doctor too because he was feeling jealous😝-

That was the most sincere thank you I had ever received.
Moments like this, keep us going

P.S. Do you think it is okay to hug patient? I was like : aww you are so sweet,  can you be my grandma. 😁

Oh , and my answer would be no.

 8 hours later: I am still smiling

Grammer, spelling and their other siblings

Oh dear lord, I read some of my posts here and I feel irritated by the quality of  my writing. I want to apologize for any potential reader. I am too lazy to fix the tons if mistakes I found, and obviously can't commit myself to proof reading in the future. ( me being on energy saving mode and stuff ).

So, if you are feeling an itch because of the quality of my English .. Idk maybe do scratch yourself that'll distract you? Just know I am thankful you are giving me from your precious time. Thank you :) and I mean it.

The lab week revision: nailed it. One day was more than enough. But to no one surprise the questions was not related to what we did! I don't know people I only know one equation to calculate positive predictive value, and there are programs  to calculate it. So no need to twist the question you know. Oh and yes that was totally unrelated to what we did this week.

Oh and someone proposed; to marry me!
Idk people. Everyone keep pushing and express their concern over my singleness. I don't know the man, never heard of him or his tribe. Do you remember the movies where ladies wear big seemingly very heavy dresses that they drag? -19 century - and they talk about arranged marriages? Will technically we are still stuck in that era. And that is how marriages happen in my part of the world.  Anyway, my reaction to previous proposals was no brainer: not ready yet. But now, with all my friends married and settled and busy and having kids- do I need to go on?- I feel old. Mostly alone, but old. So I am considering the offer.

10 years earlier I would laugh at the idea of me getting married the traditional way. Whom I kidding I would laugh at the idea of me getting married.
But things changed. Or maybe that is Nutella withdrawal symptoms!

Starting Family medicine next week. Not so enthusiastic, I feel I'll do better sleeping. But again, that might be the Nutella withdrawal. Oh and I am meeting old friends next week.

Oh people
How could my little sister do that to me? How could she finish the whole Nutella jar?

Making a problem out of nothing

Thanks to the curriculum changes in  my college we have frequent "lab weeks", we basically go over many aspect of the diagnostic tests and concepts in hematological, biochemical, molecular, genetics, etc

The thing is: I hate such weeks. I HATE them. They are a waste of our valuable time. We can spend these weeks attending clinics or being in the wards strengthening our clinical skills.

What makes matter worse is that they are stupidly designed: Let's teach those brats what waiting is (insert the evilest laugh). We have to be present from 8am to 4pm for a total teaching worth of 2 hours. I kid you not . ( mentally punching myself, I can't punch the consultant you, respect and stuff). Our day is a block of waiting.

My dilemma is: how to study lab things! I don’t know how I convinced myself non clinical stuff is to be read the night of the exam only. So here I am feeling guilty for not studying and unable to study not the least enjoy myself.



Many copies of the DNA are synthesized in

PCR

And not to feel guilty in involving you in my ranting, let's talk about PCR; polymerase chain reaction. (we had a session about it, AGAIN). This is a time saving technology where you amplify particular segment of the DNA( in case the mutation you are looking for is in the interon; aka non coding part of the DNA) or RNA( if the mutation is in the axon; the coding part of your DNA) , so you can examine it better for abnormalities. It can be used in many conditions, but its high cost narrow the list. One example is after bone marrow transplant. You want to know if the lymphocytes are of the donor or the patient himself (to check the success of the transplant for example). It also enable the early detection of leukemia and lymphomas.  

In this picture, amplified segments of DNA from both parents are used to confirm they are the  biological parents of their child. You know you get half the DNA from each parents, and this is  the simple idea behind the paternity test. In A no similarities between the dad's DNA and the son, so he is not the father. In B the child belong to this couple.