Maturing

It is 1 am. Morning meeting is 7 hours from now.
Today happened to be the last day of 5 weeks long college break.(they were lovely, thanks for asking J). I felt unsettled.
Moving back to campus did cause such feeling of despair in the past. Will I make it? What if missing the feeling of being unique and irreplaceable at home took over me and render me helpless. But tonight, although some tears were shed, that feeling was not overwhelming. I grew up. I finally did. ( finger crossed I don’t wake up to find myself 13 again).
I think I know me!  I started to feel  blue 2 weeks ago. It worsened whenever someone mentioned  school. I knew the doubts of continuing on the medical rocky road are back. So I talked to myself like a wiseman. ( I once failed myself in purpose in a hope that will liberate me._yup it is that bad_ Worse thing I did ever. And yes, it was NOT liberating at all. I repeat it was not. I can be crazy sometimes. no regret though( or plenty of it, depend from which angle I'm looking at it hehe).
 
Half year to go. Let's keep praying ( and meditating and eating those medical books).
Pray for me.
My love to you all

what's up?

It seems I abandoned my baby blog. What a horrible mother! Probably medical Monday was not a good idea, either. I am such a lazy, advocate procsteneator and I am enjoying being so.

So what is new?

Lets' see

I am supposed to be good enough in handling  patients with common hematological problems, got the chance to spent time in ICU and understand some cool things. I am almost done with my medical and surgical rotations.

  I've had the chance to explore many restaurants and places recently, which is a good change.


I gained about 3 kgs (horrray), but I stopped exercises. AND I SLEEP LIKE A POLAR BEAR. crazy I know! I had missed many clinics and classes. I am afraid I'll be in trouble because of this sleeping problem. I guess I need to exercise more and be strict in regulating my biological watch. Don't worry though my blood test confirmed how healthy I am.



So next post, no rambling... will share some medical knowledge.

Ameen
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that is an old post. i clearly have problem keeping my blog promises